Thursday, September 5, 2013

Making Me New

Last night I was listening to the radio on my way home from youth group. The sound Lift My Life Up came on by Unspoken. Maybe you've heard it, maybe not. As I was listening to the lyrics I realized how much this song reflects my life right now. If you haven't heard the song you can listen to it here: Lift My Life Up.

The song starts by saying:
You brought me this far
So why would I question you now
You have provided
So why would I start to doubt
I've never been stranded
Abandoned or left here to fight alone
So I'm giving you control
I lift my heart, lift my heart up

You can have it forever
All my dreams, all my plans
Lord
I leave it in your hands

I lift my life, lift my life up

Have your way in me
Have your way in me

If peace is a river

Then let it sweep over me

I'm under fire
I know it's refining me
When I hear you calling out

I follow now wherever the road may go
I know you're leading me home

In an earlier post I wrote about starting a new job. I wrote about how I had this perfect plan lined out to teach in a classroom and to finish my Master's Degree in Literacy. Then God took me a whole different direction. A direction I never would have pursued on my own. As I've started this new chapter in my life, I feel it now more than ever that I need God in every area of my life. I need Him in my marriage, in my friendships, in my job, and in our youth group. Without God being at the center of everything I do, I am worthless. There are so many days I wake up and get to work and think I am so unqualified for this job, yet God continues to give me peace and wisdom. There are days where I don't want to love to those around me, and God reminds me to walk alongside of them and love them. I am realizing the beauty of simply walking with people where they are. There are days when I don't want to serve Chris and I want to be selfish, yet God reminds me that I am serving Him through serving Chris. I know that God is stretching me and continuing to mold me into the person He wants me to be. This song is my prayer. That I would honestly lift everything in my life up to God, that He would have His way in me.  I know that He is making me new and it is such a beautiful experience.